All wrapped up.

hammering my heart
stabbing me with nails
sticking your hands
where they don't belong
get out of my head
I don't want you here
this vicious screaming
sounds like a demon

how can you excorcise
what can't be seen?
you are my weakness
my enemy
the cold nights flash by
I feel so lonely

the blood leaks
from the screws you've dug into my temples
I can't help but smirk
you are a massochist
a narcissist
you are
the side of me I hate
you're wrapped up
all smug and happy
you just push your way through me
like I'm nothing

how can one coexist
with something
that doesn't really exist?
you're my fear
you take over me
steal my faith
and shove doubt
down this aching throat

I keep screaming
but no one can hear me
I'm my own enemy
all wrapped up
in all that I used to be
what memorabilias
don't bring back torturous memories?

you have a name
that only doctors prescribe with pills
to lock you away
the pills are only half of the fight
I close my eyes and brace myself
you tuck me in
hold me tight
I pray no nightmares
tonight