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Blood isn't thicker than regret..I need to get out. I need friend time. I need a vacation. I need to breathe. I need to smile... because this woman that is doing him wrong... isn't me..
and every time after I freak out I come to my senses feeling fucking awful. Why can't I just support him?
He needs me but I'm just making myself part of the problem. I need to take a big step back, stop being so fucking needy. Be there for him.
Even if I don't know what he's suffering from.
Even if I feel like he doesn't trust me. He's right, it's not my problem... but I can't help but feel like I could do something. Even if it is to listen, or to hear him preach. I am not making his life any easier...
this person that is freaking out it isn't me.
I'm nothing but a puppet filled with insecurities.
I am better than this. I am greater than these taunting thoughts that wrack my cranium. Why can't I just tear them out and beg them to let me be?
Why of all times has my depression decided to set in?
Crowing in my ear like the Joker's insanit
dead dog julyI.
the summer heat lays limp in the city’s lap,
breathing long oppressive breaths.
it does not even lift its lolling head
to bark out hoarse indignancy
when a strange man brings the mail.
there might be heavy rain today,
brought by some swollen, murmuring cloud.
the world will whirl and howl,
then settle down,
to die a little more.
o, quickly, love,
press your back against the wall in fear
as the universe spreads her arms and
shuts her eyes
and starts to summon the end of all things.
come with me
to the place of windows full of speechless afternoon
hot windy whispers of half-formed solutions and resolutions,
sweltering sunlit meadows we’ll wander and then forget.
o quickly, love,
let’s to the season of forgetting
and unwind all of our harshest memories
and fill the universe’s mouth
with mute cotton.
i’ll whisper these words to you some evening
with all my exigency in the hand i rest on your arm—
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